I wake up in the morning and I start scrolling. I scroll through Facebook then Instagram, sometimes a deal blog or two, then usually open Facebook again. I stare at it absent mindedly for a second, trying to figure out what's wrong before realizing I've already read it all.
I'm not writing, I'm not connecting, I'm not even really reading. I'm just scrolling.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for. Well, that's not completely true. I'm pretty sure I do know. I'm lonely. I'm bored. I'm hoping that by scrolling I can make myself feel better, can somehow fill up the parts of me that feel empty.
But it doesn't work. It never works. Scrolling is never going to be the thing that saves me. I need to do something else.
I'm not sure what to do.
We wake up the same way. I'm a chronic scroller. It just makes me feel empty.
ReplyDeleteOh yes. Bored and lonely scrolling. I suppose, for me, the solution would be to actually reach out and get together with real live people. But that's usually too scary.
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