Tuesday, August 29, 2017
Getting still
BG is at her second day of first grade (I KNOW), and LS just fell asleep on the couch at 11:30 in the morning. It is quiet in my house.
I feel like I've been waiting for this quiet for a long time.
But even so, I find that I am searching for ways to fill the quiet, ways to keep busy, things to do. I have books to read, audio classes to listen to, facebook lives to watch. I have to clean my house, I have to write, I have to get everything done because I don't know when I'm going to have this space and this stillness again and if I don't do it all now I don't know if I'll ever do it.
I don't know when I'll have this space and this stillness again.
A few days ago, my kids were playing with their Little People quietly together without me (oh miracle of miracles) and I asked some friends on FB which of the things on my massive self care and personal development checklist would be the best use of my time. One of my friends asked me what my gut said.
The truth was, my gut said to do nothing, and surely that couldn't be the right answer.
Maybe it is.
Maybe I just need to get still for a little while, to stop doing, to be here now alone in the quiet. Maybe that's the most productive use of my time after all.
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I used to think that patience was the hardest superpower, but scratch that. Stillness is.
ReplyDeleteyou get points for trying. and hugs.