So, umm, in case I didn't mention it? I had a baby last week.
I can't begin to explain all the ways this time is different. But the most noticeable way is how different my baby is.
Little sister is calm. And quiet. (Who knew they made them quiet?) She doesn't care who's holding her, doesn't mind being put down. At night, she sleeps in her bassinet and only wakes up to eat. She only cries when she's hungry, and when she is awake and not nursing, she is calm and alert - although to me her expression always says "what's with you crazy people?" Which? Fair enough.
She is pleasant and agreeable, and in every way an easy baby.
But please don't call her a good baby, or I'll want to scream.
Because as much as I'm enjoying the quiet, as much of a relief it is not to be pacing the floor all night with an(other) inconsolable child, as great as she is to be around, when you call her a good baby, all I hear is that BG wasn't.
And that's so not fair.
Never once, whatever we went through together, did I think my sweet eldest girl was a bad baby.
And I worry too about my little one, being in the shadow of her charming, demanding, endearing, crazy-making big sister. Is it really in her best interest to be so calm? On Christmas Eve I forgot where she was, while I was nursing her.
The truth is I am absolutely crazy about both of my girls, and all I want is for them both to be happy and loved. And if it is possible to have a "good" baby, well then I have two.