One month of my one word

We're one month into the year, and it's time to check in on my one word progress.

Right around now?  I'm wishing I had picked "survive" instead.

Kidding.  Sorta.

The word I did choose, grow, is a little bit harder, but there's a reason for that.  It means that instead of just treading water, I'm consciously choosing to let everything I do and everything that happens move me forward.  And I'm choosing to see the ways in which it has, even when things seem like they suck a little.

And this month, I really have grown.

I'm reading and I'm writing. I'm seeing the good in my days, and particularly in myself.  I'm choosing not to let the hard stuff and the screw ups define me.  I'm choosing to act, to get up and do something even when I don't know what the right thing to do is.  I'm doing things that make me feel happy and accomplished and finding ways to make my life easier.

If you had asked me two months ago how I'd be doing right now, I would have guessed that my head would be just barely above water.  But the truth is, even when it's really hard and even when I'm struggling, I'm doing better than I had been for a while, better than I was doing with only one kid in the house and no snow on the ground.

And every week, every choice, every action, everything I learn and everything I do, brings me forward.  I'm not really sure where I'm going to end up at the end of it, but that's not really the point.  The point is that I am always growing.

I'm linking up with Just Be Enough, and hope you will too.  How are you doing with your One Word?