Tuesday, November 1, 2011

And I'm me again

So, my MOMS Club activity for today was coffee at Dunkin Donuts. I didn't RSVP because with all the craziness I just didn't know how much I'd have time to do. Everyone who had RSVP'd had said "maybe," so as far as I knew no one was even coming.

But the worst that could happen was I'd have coffee and a doughnut with Baby Girl, right? And at best I'd get to hang out with mamas and talk and get out of my funk.

Well, actually, maybe that wasn't the best.

No one was there when I got there, so I got my coffee, a bagel, and a doughnut (umm, yeah, I'd eaten breakfast already. What? Don't judge! Did I mention BG is nursing *every hour* again??), and pulled the stroller over to a corner table. We were there for a while just eating and making eyes at each other before anyone came in.

I saw her walk in with the carseat in her hand, and knew right away she must be the new member who had just joined. I'd seen her name on the list. If I hadn't been there, she would have shown up to her first event and been all by herself.

For the next half hour, we talked (and ate). Her entire face lit up, and I could tell she had been in a place I had been not so long ago. She felt isolated. She felt trapped in her house.

She felt like suddenly someone had turned a light on and she had realized there were other people like her.

We talked about naps (even though, yeah, her 3 month old is a better sleeper than my 13 month old. Sigh), tummy time, sign language. We talked about story time at the library. I told her how glad I was that she had joined, how important it was to get out and see other people. She nodded.

She looked like she could suddenly breathe again. I knew that feeling. I knew it particularly because at that moment I realized I could breathe again. I remembered who I am, what I love, what I believe in.

Peace and purpose? May already be within my grasp.


  1. You were just what she needed . . . a friend . . . somone who understand . . . an adult to talk with.

  2. @Jenn (who is for some reason a no reply blogger??) And she was just what I needed. Of course she was.

  3. That's good you decided to go, it sounds like you both needed it! It means so much to connect with someone who can relate during these crazy first months of being a mom!

  4. Ahhh and that's motherhood at its best. When we find someone else who we can be honest with and comiserate! I bet she's smiling too right now :-)

  5. Wonderful story, hon :)

    So glad you both made each others day!

  6. Doesn't it feel great to be able to help out another new mom? Even though we're still new at this, there are people even newer now!

  7. Isn't that amazing to feel like you've helped someone? Now I wish I lived close to you so we could have our own little moms club!